Fitness All the Way

To the not-so-sporty man that is looking through the track and field, the person that was with me all the way throughout with my journey with my body. The way I handle myself with food around and for your being generous and sometimes confusing in terms of my eating habits, eating conditions and eating problems. You have been with me all throughout and I would love to thank you for all the kindness and roughness towards me because of that, I knew there was something wrong and because of that, I came to challenge myself. You may not join me with what I do but you are with me all the way from Day 1 up to now. Thank you and it means so much! Thank you for filling the void, for teaching me so many things in your own little ways and for always showing up and letting me feel that you are with me. Although there are a lot of time that we may feel that we have different interests but you somehow managed to accept what I want to do with my life and with my body.

This was my body a year ago:

During my son's 5th birthday

In this time of the year, you are getting used to giving me massage since I experience backaches a lot even if I do get 2-3 times massage with different therapists. I was feeling a lot of uneasiness and you were with me, you have stopped controlling me with the way I eat. You were with me when I decided to be fat and you were with me when I decided that I have to do something with my condition. Yes, it's a condition because everyday I wake up tired and before it gets dark, my vision is already darkening. I stay up so late most of the time and because of that my heart beats so unusually, when I stay up late, you sleep beside me when I feel sick you ease me from my pain. So, I decided that I have to do something with my body and you were with me during that decision.

Now, you can see that there's great difference physically, physiologically and mentally. I am healthy in all the sense of the word and for the first time in my life, I don't feel tired because I am not eating too much sugar from too much cakes and chocolates.

Thank you my dearest! :* :* :*

Coffee Time at the Coffee Shop

Sitting here at the most peaceful place on earth - coffee shop. I know! It's not that peaceful but when you are working at the corners of your home then you will surely love sitting at other places too - dreaming, imagining and letting go of the thoughts or not required to think at all, right? Yeah! Sometimes, I catch myself spacing out, lost somewhere which I, myself don't know the place either. But I just enjoy this moment when I catch myself lost somewhere because being a mother of two (or three, which includes their daddy) is not that easy. You forgot to take care of yourself, you forgot to even brush your teeth, brush your hair - that's true! You forget about yourself and think about the welfare of those little human beings that are waiting for you and relying their lives on you. Well, that's responsibility! I know. At the age of 21, married my husband and got one kid who just turned 5 last Feb 13 which still gets me emotional because just imagine, my baby boy is now a big boy. Oh, sorry about the !!! but I really feel superb right now with the post punk background music around, it's like I'm writing the story of my life with harmony.

There are a lot of things that happened in my life for the past few months, I gave birth to big baby which almost took all of my strength because I wasn't strong enough to undertake such big challenge in my life. I didn't prepare for my giving birth - how wonderful!

Me and my mom and my brother are friends again. Hopefully, they won't do something stupid again and again and again. I just ask that they'll be good.

Lord, thank you for everything!

My Little Guitar Player

My little guitar player is the best guy that I have right now (Oh Gosh! How about his father? Well, whoever comes first.) 

He is just like his dad, he makes up songs; he loves to make up songs with his own words and his own tune. Kael makes me so proud because he is the miniature version of his dad who loves to compose songs rather than to go along with the present trending in the world of music. Music is their major commonality and I can say that it's amazing to have musicians in the house and to see a person grow as a musician in his own way.

If I had money, I could have bought him a drum set but unfortunately enough, I cannot buy it yet. He gave me the first sign that he loves to hear music when he was just seven months old - tapping the table in the rhythm to the song that I am listening. That moment, I felt my heart jump because I didn't force it to him. Music just came to him like blood coursing through his veins.

This song came from a game that his so crazy about - Crazy Taxi (My boy pronounces it as: "Kreyzey Taksey"). Let me post the video of the original singer of the song... He sings along with this song which really makes my heart jump. I am the #1 fan of my little boy and I know that someday, he will become just like his dad and will make me proud just as his dad.

Credits to the composer:

Walking Down the Memory Lane

First Meeting in the Coffee Shop

We haven't been talking for almost half a year and it was because I just shut my world from you. I know... It was a useless quarrel and I know that it was unfair for your part to be shut down like that. At that time, I cannot tell you the reason why I was shutting you down from my life which I realized was a very wrong decision. Just because I don't want to sound like a meddling person who knows you so much, I tried to shut down myself from you. Sorry for that... Sorry to you my bestfriend whom I have shared some great milestones in my life and have shared both our ups and downs together.

We met as churchmates and has been friends since then. I did not regret that you and I became friends because we stick and got stuck together like glue. Although there were certain moments in our lives that we both got busy with the choices that we had in our lives which I do not wish to mention anymore. Let's put it as past is past and let bygones be bygones.

We both saw ourselves from being immature to slightly matured person that we are right now. We have shared our own grievances and grave misfortunes and had each other back to back. Although, there were times that we cannot be able to stand each other's attitude and tend to look for other friends instead. But for me, nothing beats you. You know me and I know you. 

The situation has changed and the condition of the lives we are is totally different from the way we used to before. We have seen each other fail, grow, get hurt and become a major success but we are still together.

Now, it's time for you to step out of your shell and live the life that you have always wanted to have. I bid you farewell and I wish you the best of luck. I might just say to myself and remind myself that you will be only far from me in distance but not in my heart.

I love you bestfriend!

Touched My Soul to the Core

While having a lazy Sunday because me and my baby wasn't able to go to church with his father - who's a long time accompanist in Luna UCCP, we opted to watch cartoons while lying in our sofa with our arms around each other. Yes, watching cartoons is our bonding time and sometimes, I find myself the only one who's watching the TV while he's playing around with his toys at tow.

But he also loves to watch videos on youtube and while I was browsing my facebook, I get to check out a video which is about God / Jesus. The messages in the videos were really great and one thing that made my baby Kael watch it is because it is animated. 

We were down to the 4th video watching videos while the TV is still running. I said to myself, whoa! They really got me into this and made me ponder and think about God and pray and say thanks that even if I was not able to go to church. I still found some ways to worship Him, to glorify Him in my mind.

While doing this deep thinking, I suddenly realized that it's time for lunch and I have to make one ASAP. But then, down to this last video, I was caught and realized that Kael was engrossed in what we are currently watching. I was touched by the videos that I watch. 

When I was about to break our warm embrace, I realized that Kael was teary-eyed. What??? A 3-year old boy is touched with this video clip??? Then, he started crying. Then that was it, it looks like he never wanted to stop crying at all. Now, he has those big sobs that looks like I spanked him or we got into a big fight.

He said, "Jesus... Luoy..." which means that he cried because he felt sorry for Jesus in the video clip and that Jesus was sleeping in the tent.

What a day!

God, I can say, you sent me an angel. Right here beside me. Thank you for this glorifying day and thank you so much for everything.....